He came over and i don't know to comment if the talk was efficient, good, or like solved all our problems. I didn't want a bad closure, I don't know how to be friends with him. I don't know what to say, what to do. Afterall, we sort of skipped the friends stage. Everything seems like it was ytd. its like we're back at my place again, with him slacking in my room. However it feels a lot different this time. I cannot pretend that the phonecall didn't happen. I cannot pretend that I am not angry and upset when I still am. He seems to apologise for the harsh words and yet doesn't seems sincere about it. I was like on my defensive mode again. I know my tone was not right, i know i wasn't being nice. I just couldn't help it when i haven get over the fact that i was wronged!

He said " When I move on, I'll not look back". Cause that's him. I knew that that's him. He's that kind of guy where he will 那得起放得下. I know that once i missed him, he'll not be back anymore. But i can't live with criticism anymore. Actually, i don't know what's the purpose of the talk. After all, he said before that he has no intention of getting back with me.

I cannot take it when suddenly he soften down, and.... it just makes me feel bad. I guess what i'm angry the most was i felt very very wrong during the last phone call. oh well....

"Our love is deemed as shallow from the point you doubt my love for you."

(i can relate to hush hush a lot.)