WOW. its like.... time flies. I'm at the 3rd yr of my diploma. Its like... do or die. do to go to uni, die to go work. Okay, whatever. u get what i mean. This year hasn't been a really great year for me.. well, to start with, i didn't achieve my academic goal. yayaya.. some will go wth again. But yea, that's fine.

I read Qiao's blog, i'm not too sure if we're the friends you gained or lost. But its more like lost hurs. We always love u. If you ever need us, you know we're still here. Always will and always be here. how should i put it.. We don't blame you. To say the truth, i have never ever want you to know of the conflict that was going on between angel, me and the boys. We just thought that there was a preference for unfair treatment and all anyway. However, chong yong went to tell you everything. I have the plan of solving it and then tell u personally. Screw the person who told you anyway. yea. I hope that one fine day things will be put behind us, and yea, best friend forever still (: and yea, to tell you why angel will do those stuff for me. she was trying to protect me. i was upset, jealous or whatever you called it. But not anymore. Sorry that my mind was poisoned by the impression that the guys gave me. perhaps its my fault instead should i have not been so sensitive.

Well, this year, I had a major quarrel with Angel girl.I'm glad to clear things up with her. Because she has been in my life for a long period of my life. Its like.. when she left, I have nobody left. Literally nobody except for the boyfriend that I have at that point of time. My parents asked about her, cus they don't see her around my house having dinner or soup with me anymore. The days where she like to drink the soup that my mum cooked and yet afraid to found out were gone. Hilarious. lols. Anyway, yea, i love her. I treat her like one of the best ppl i have around me... she's like a younger sis to me, just couldn't help to treat her nicer and better than others. I hate to admit, but yea, she does need a lot of our (including mine & other friends) protection. LOLS. (She's going to kill me when she read this)

and to think about it again, I have never been really close to ppl in ABCDE. except for Aaron and drexler i think. everything was fine with NAs and ABCDE till..... Let's just say that i miss the days whr the 9 of us actually spent lots of time together, be it singing, dinner, slacking under the void deck, etc. but those days seems so far away now. its like... broken links or sth.

07 girls have been really sweet to me this year (: and i'm thankful for it. Though Jia Xin loves to babble nonsense, i still love her. =D lols. thanks for the surprise on my 19th and on achievers' function. thanks for being there for me and being encouraging all along. loves!

and yea, the broke up with Sebastian this year. Just in case nobody knows about it yet. You seems to be the most perfect guy that i can ever wish for. But yea, you're just perfect. But even the most perfect guy on earth may not be what I need. I may not meet someone like you again-----from the way you treat me when we were together. but yea, that's fine. Sorry if i made you feel that i have wasted your time and all. Tolerating my flaws is all nothing but hassles and burdens to you. I have learned a lot from our relationship. I realised that I need someone encouraging, not someone who always criticise my doings and doubt my words. I learnt to be more patient, I had to be if i can wait for you to be late for 1.5hr, i guess. what i meant to say was.... I never see it coming. I never see our r/s coming to an end. I thought our r/s was strong enough to endure everything. But i was wrong. I thought of spending forever with you even though it was silly of me. I see future in us and all. But yea,vision and goals doesn't always go the way I want. I have learned to live with that. learnt to be satisfied with what i have.... so... that's goodbye for us. Perhaps when you & i moved on, we can be friends again. For now, its best that we see less of each other, minimise the level of hurt and pain that we can bring to one another. I hope you will find your girl, who fits into every criteria of yours.

If i can wish for 1 thing, just 1 thing before the end of the year.... I hope Angel and Qiao, Angel and the guys... will be fine all over again. i hope we can be back at the stage where anything could be shared under the sun. (: